Gratitude
I wish that I
would have taken the time to reflect every day on the different
experiences. There is so much that I
could say and so much I want to say. This trip was given to me as a gift from
God. My trip was paid for by a generous
family. I wish I could convey to them
how much this trip has impacted my life.
I want them to know how grateful I am for this experience that has
turned my life upside down. If it wasn’t
for them, I’d have nothing to reflect.
So, thank you, thank you and thank you.
From Fear to Wonder
I hate it that I
struggle with fear, but I do. Yes, I
feared that my planes would crash and we wouldn’t make it back. I feared that the plane ride would give me a
bad headache or motion sickness. I
feared that I would get malaria, since that is the one vaccine I didn’t
get. I feared that I would get sick from
the water or the foreign food. I feared
that I would feel awkward and
uncomfortable in a foreign country. UGH! I type the words and I think “REALLY?.” It embarrasses me that as many times that God
has proven Himself to me in my life, as many times that God has stepped in and
provided for my many needs, and as many times that God has protected me from
many harms, I still wrestle with fear. I
can report that God faithfully covered my every fear – again.
He replaced every fear with His peace and
joy. Not only that, He blessed me with
awe and wonder. As I was flying in the
plane I looked at the top of the clouds. God is His infinite wisdom created the
clouds to stop at some point in the sky.
They become this magnificent covering for the earth. It was beautiful – a small reflection of
God’s creative genius. At one point in the flight I looked down and noticed the
thousands of homes and was blown away that God knew the intricate details of
every person in each one of those houses.
The whole experience of Ecuador
would be new to me, but God formed the country and its inhabitants. He knew the coming and going of all Ecuador's affairs since day one. UNFATHOMABLE!! How does God keep track
of every person in the whole world at the same time? God blows me away. The more I see and learn, the more I grasp
that He is way bigger than my mind can imagine.
The People
Oh my
goodness! The people were amazing! I am not understating or exaggerating when I
say that we were treated like royalty.
It was so humbling to be loved on by the Compassion leaders, the mothers
of the children we sponsor, and the beautiful children. In the first fifteen minutes of meeting with
the children, one of the girls took off one of her bracelets and put it on my wrist. I didn’t want her to give me a gift
– I wanted to give her gifts. This is
how it was the whole trip. From day one
to the very end, they were giving so much to us. The hostess prepared feasts for us. The mothers made us gifts. The children gave us themselves. At the very least it was humbling. I could not help but feel guilty for my lack
of contentment with my life. These wonderful people who had nothing compared to
you and me were the most grateful people I have ever met. On the last day, we met with just the
mothers. Many asked why we would travel
so far just to see them. One mother
started crying and asked how long would we support them. It broke my heart to realize that the small
amount of money that I don’t even miss to support just one of these kids means so
much to a family across the world.
Children
I know you’ve
heard it many times before, but it was true – these kids who had nothing were
the happiest, the most loving kids I have ever met! When I was playing with the
kids, I was brought back to a place I’d long forgotten. They had something that I had lost along the
American dreamy way - a place where I was safe and free of all worries and fears. They gave a pure love of total
acceptance. No one cared what their clothes or hair looked like. They had untainted joy
solely from being with one another. It was a picture of what I imagine God purposed for His church all along.
I didn't have the skill (speaking Spanish) to get to know the kids like I wanted, but I managed to find a small way to connect with them. There's a little hand game called "Double This, Double That". I played it literally for hours with the children. It was so endearing throughout the week to have a little kid come up to me and hold up his/her two tiny fists and in a Spanish accent ask, "Double, double?". Ahhh - it blessed my heart. Even though I couldn't communicate with words to these kids, I was able to show them what all of us really want in the long end - someone willing to take the time to jump into our world and share it with us.
It's Time
In my next blog, I want to take the opportunity to tell you about my experience in sponsoring Ivan. For now, I want to leave you with an opportunity to change your life and the life of not one child, but a family across the world. Visit the Compassion International website at http://www.compassion.com/ and look through the many kids who still need a sponsor. If God leads you to sponsor, I can guarantee that it will be one decision you won't regret!
